Nothing much new. I'm mad at Mom because she's never reliable anymore. She cancelled coming here Saturday. It doesn't surprise me. I don't want to see her again for a while, that's for sure. Well, tomorrow will be the start of another work week, I'm looking forward to it. However, we'll be off Wednesday for New Years, so it will be a split week with four days, but that's better than a two day week. Things are starting to look up, and I've actually already got some cash saved back. It's only about $20, but that's a lot right now. First things first, I'm going to go to the optomotrist and get some contacts. These glasses have just about had it, and a new set of glasses would be pretty thick, so I'm going to go with contacts. After that, it'll be paying bills off from in TX and going to the dentist. By the time I have some of the bills paid off, the baby should be here, but hopefully I'll have enough money saved back for when that happens for things like baby food and diapers. I've also already told Kim that I would give her the money to take the course at the vo-tech for transcriptioning, so after she has the baby, she'll probably be ready for that. With both of us having jobs, we should do pretty well, especially since she will be able to be home all the time.

For today, hmm... Try http://www.redhat.com/. That's the operating system I'll be installing when I finally get those CD's.

Right now I'm on Barbara's computer. Why? Because my computer doesn't have an operating system. Why is that? Because Mom lied and didn't come when she said she would. She does this all the time; she's one of the most unreliable people I know, and if it wasn't for my aunt and the government, she would either be homeless or dead right now. I'm not just venting frustration, this has been a thing long in the making. I just talked to Michael on the net and asked him if they were coming this Saturday like my Mom told me she would, but now she says she doesn't know if she wants to come or not. Oh well, it just leaves me computerless for that many more days. I guess all the time that I did all of those wrong things to her are paying back now, and will probably continue to pay me back until the day one of us dies. The more and more I think about it, the more and more I feel like she uses her mental problems as a crutch. She may seem like she tries to get better by going to the doctor all the time, but hey, the doctors still aren't 100% sure about what they're doing, as depression is still a fairly new subject for doctors. She takes it overboard a lot, too... If she gets a headache, to the doctor she goes. If she gets a paper cut, to the doctor she goes. Almost anything sends her to the doctor. If she could just use her strength more to want to heal herself than using her strength to just rely on other people, she might get somewhere. Then, at least, she could say, "I did everything I could, now I can depend on others." Well, lets just skip the first and jump to the latter, and depend on others. By example, what if Michael mimics her? What kind of person would we have then? But I don't think he'll do that... I think I've mimicked her more than anybody else, but I've stopped the foolishness and decided to push on by myself. I've gotten so much better since then; I'm out from under her wing and, for the most part, have few regrets about anything I've done up to now. But her, what does she have to show? Sickness, misery, need, fear, dependency... The list surely goes on, and she just as easily lets it. There's always a way out of the darkness and into the light, but her, she's turned her back on it, looking into the past constantly, walking backwards into and unknown future. Oh well, there's not anything that I can do about it, I don't guess...

I'm liking my job. I'll stay with this one as long as I can; hopefully forever. Well, today I'm off, seeing as it's Saturday, and I'll be off until this coming Thursday. They gave us a pretty large break, and if I'd have been there long enough, it would have been a paid holiday off. Oh well... But yesterday, they gave everyone in the plant free hams (worth about $25 a piece, probably, and boneless to boot). I was also lucky enough to win a throw (you know, something you put on a couch... At least that's what I'm told.) I looked at their website and looked to see how much it was worth... $69 is the cheapest they have! So, that'll make a pretty good gift for somebody, but I can't say who just yet. Also yesterday, we came to mom's to stay for the weekend. Today, we went bowling, which I haven't done in a long time. Michael's friend Jeff also joined us. Kim had never bowled before, but her first game, she beat me! Hehe, I suck. Then, the next game, I won with a 129. All of our scores were low, but we're not experts, and it was sure fun to play.

Today, check out http://www.kazaalite.com/, a clone of Kazaa minus the spyware and ads, plus a few extras. Until next time...

Today was my second day of work. Today was a little different, though, because I worked alone the whole time. I was a little worried that I wouldn't be able to remember everything that I needed to do, but luckily I think I got everything. I was a little rushed for time once, but it wasn't that bad. I hope that if I stay with this job long enough, I'll get moved to another job. The person before me was there for about 4 months, and he was moved to another job today, so maybe after 4 months I'll get the same. He said he's also making $7.30, so I may get a raise by that time too.

Today, I can't think of any good sites to visit. Sorry. :(

I have a job! My first day was today, on Friday the 13th. They said I'd be doing "maintenance," but they should have just said janitorial or custodial work. I pretty much clean toilet after toilet all day long, but it's $7.00 an hour, which is the second best paying job I've ever had, so it's not bad at all. This is especially true because half of my day I work with other people, the other half I'm all alone. It kinda gives me the best of both worlds.

Also, I've been working on a revamp of this blog. Sooner or later the blog may move to a different address, and the layout will have graphics done completely by me, but all the content will stay the same. I spent a whole day working on these graphics, so I'm really proud of them. More on this later, whenever I get the time to finish it up.

Today's link is http://www.spamletters.com/, a pretty funny site. Later.

Yesterday, Rick and I cut down trees to clear off some of his land for the spring. Well, he cut the trees down with a chainsaw and I just picked up the brush and logs, and piled them. Boy, was I sore today. It was about 7 hours of work with a lot of bending over, so my back and legs are a little bit sore.

Today, Kim's parents both left to stay somewhere for the week. I don't even really know where they are, but all that matters is we have the house to ourselves for the week! Yippee! Today, we also got $25 worth of groceries, so we'll have a little bit of food for the week.

Tomorrow, we'll be going back to Paris for Kim's Dr. and WIC appointment. Then, we'll be going to Mom's to stay for a few and I'll be burning a CD with a few programs on it to bring back here. I'm not exactly sure how long Kim is going to want to stay there, but more than likely it won't be very long. I have a $10 Chili's gift certificate, so I may see if Mom can't give us a little extra money so we can go eat there; I just love Chili's! Kim is starting to get tired of it because that's where we always go to eat, hehe.

Today, check out http://www.blackmask.com/, a site with online books. Some look like they would be pretty interesting reads. Give this sight a looky-see, you shouldn't be disappointed.

Not much new. Rick came back home today, but right now he's asleep in a chair in the living room. We made a campfire today outside, but gave up on it because it just wasn't warm enough. It's probably because of the rain we got the other day, wetting the logs down. I also went to the Movie Gallery, but the manager said that the people who have my application still haven't contacted her, and she hasn't been able to get in touch with them. Is it just me, or does it feel like a runaround? I hear the same thing from everybody, I've had it with all the "don't call us, we'll call you." Sigh, oh well.

Good news. It's the weekend! Party on! Well, I wish. Maybe I'll just go water the cows and milk the grass.

Other news. The 19th is the day Kim has to go to her Dr.'s appointment. The 18th is the day I'm supposed to go to Mom's for Christmas. Maybe we'll actually stay a day there. I would like to, but Kim's gotten weird about it because of the smoke, but I don't blame her. Maybe I can talk to Mom about this before we actually go and just see if we can work it out. Shouldn't be too complicated, anyway. I just hope that if I have a job by then, I'll be off those days, or maybe not have a job by then at all, but I'd really rather have a job so I can get some Christmas presents for Kim. Well, they can't keep me from having a job forever; maybe Kim can just have a late Christmas.

Well, Michael is messaging me, and Kim wants on the computer, so I'm going to go ahead and get off of here. Check out http://www.mpogd.com/ for cool online games. See yas!

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Yesterday, we went to Plano. However, there was a small problem. The night before, Kim and I laid down at around 12:00 midnight. I didn't fall asleep until around 4:00 AM, and got up at 8:00 AM, giving me only 4 hours of sleep for a 400 mile drive. This was not good, not at all. I was very sleep the whole way, plus my cold, it couldn't have gotten any worse. Well, yes it did. It was rainy the whole way there, limiting visibility in the Dallas traffic. However, we got in and out just fine, and was given some somewhat good news. The baby's kidneys haven't gotten any worse (or any better for that matter) but I feel like it's a good thing. The doctor tried again to see if he could make a better guess as to what the baby was, but he said, "the baby just won't spread it's legs." Heh, crazy. Well, after getting back home to my Mom's, we found out she wasn't there. This made Kim pretty mad because Mom knew we were coming, and we needed the $20 Mom said she'd give us to get back home. Well, after waiting around about an hour or so, I got a call from my aunt saying that Mom went to a doctor somewhere, but they were on their way here. Regretfully, we weren't able to stay at Mom's very long for fear of freezing rain. Kim also didn't want to stay for a couple of reasons: One, the house reeked of cigarette smoke. Two, the last time Kim was there, several people stayed in the kitchen having a smoke fest, which forced Kim out of the house for about an hour, she said. I just now found out about this, and I'm not all too happy about it, but it is her house, so she can do whatever she wants, but that doesn't mean I have to come over. I'm starting to question whether or not Kim and I are even going to go there for Christmas, because I don't like Kim breathing in cigarette smoke, and I don't like not having a place to sleep without forcing somebody out of their room.

On another note, today I went back to the Movie Gallery again, but this time I actually got to talk to the manager. She said they haven't gotten the results of the application yet because of the Thanksgiving holidays, but to keep trying back. I asked to check to see if they were even still hiring, and she said yes, so that's pretty good news. Then, we went to the U.S. Army Ammunition Plant for a job because somebody told Barbara that they were hiring, but they just said you have to go to the employment office to get a job, and I've already been there, so it was a wasted trip of about 50 or so miles to do that. Oh well, you can't say I'm not trying!

The site of the day for today is http://www.theonion.com/, a funny news site. I hope you enjoy! Bye.

If you're wondering why I haven't blogged lately, it's because I've been a tad sick; sore throat, coughing, sneezing, general tiredness. You know, the cold. Well, anyway, today I went back to the Movie Gallery (like the manager told me to on Monday, and today is Monday), but she wasn't there at around 2:30. However, the cashier told me that she should be back between 4:00 and 5:00, so Kim and I finished doing what we were supposed to do (get groceries from Wal-Mart and the local Supermarket, which is way overpriced). Then, on our way back, a fire truck zoomed by, so we decided to follow it since it turned down one of the two roads we would have turned on to get home, anyway. It seems a house caught fire, but we couldn't follow since the police were blocking the road. Well, we thought we'd be sneaky and get to it down a back road, but there were too many cars that way, too, so we decided to turn around and head back home. Then, at home, we ate some Cheesy Hashbrowns and Ham, bought from Wal-Mart. It was pretty good, but it could have been better, I think. Then, after eating, we headed back to the Movie Gallery, but lo and behold, the manager wasn't there. This doesn't surprise me in the least, because Bill's Dollar Store did the same thing to me. I came back EVERY day they told me to, but the manager was never there. Then, that job was filled after I had to leave town a couple of days to take Kim to the Dr. in Dallas. Well, guess what. Tomorrow I have to take Kim to Dallas again for another Dr.'s appointment. More than likely, I'm going to lose getting this job too. It makes me really mad that people do me like this. I saw some people I haven't seen yet at the Movie Gallery today, so the position that I applied for is probably already filled. Like I told Kim, it's probably somebody who knew somebody who knew somebody that knew the manager that got the job. Then again, they probably weren't going to ever hire me anyway. I'm getting used to that living here in the country, because it seems more or less to be who you know rather than what you know, but hey, all I know about is computers, and there is no job market for anything like that where we're living. I think I should have put all my efforts into something else, because knowing everything I do about computers has gotten me absolutely nowhere. Sure, when people actually see what I can do, and have done, they act a little interested in hiring me, but still that gets me nowhere. Like Kim, she's A+ certified (and still doesn't know as much as me), but that hasn't gotten her a job, not even so much as an interview. Not that there was even a place to get an interview, because people here just don't seem to want, or need computers, unless the computer is packaged with farm equipment or something.

Well, tomorrow is definitely going to be a big day. There is going to be at least 6 or 7 hours of driving involved, and it's going to be worse since I've got this cold, but maybe it will subside for tomorrow. Maybe we'll get lucky and find out what the baby's gender is going to be, at least maybe more than an 80% approximation. Maybe we'll even get better news and find out that the baby is 100% healthy. Time will only tell...

Today, go to http://www.webmonkey.com for all the web devel's out there. Ciao.